I’ve had a few friends ask me, “Doesn’t it worry you that what you’ve come to believe is considered heresy by almost all of the church throughout history?” To which I reply, “Yes, frankly it scared the hell out of me for months!” You see, I value and respect the greater body of Christ tremendously, but ultimately I must be honest concerning what I’ve come to believe. And I’ve come to believe based on my personal study of scripture, as well as hours of prayer and meditation, and days of fasting, that Jesus really is the savior of all humanity. This time in study, prayer, meditation, and fasting has convinced me so firmly now, that I no longer worry that my beliefs are not main-stream.
Others also ask me, “Do you not worry that you might be wrong?” To which I reply, No, I don’t worry that I might be wrong, because I “assume” that I AM WRONG in some of my beliefs! And my trust is not in my understanding of scripture, but in the Lord. So though I be wrong, I trust the Lord to lead me to the truth. Shoot, if UR is correct, then I’ve been wrong over 40 years, though I was saved, had a relationship with God, was filled with the Holy Spirit, and passionately loved God and others. I trust in the Lord, so I do not worry about being wrong and am open to learning something new. So I regularly pray for God to teach me the truth and show me where my beliefs are off.
I have come to the place though that when others start dissing what I’ve come to believe, using the word Heresy, it, well, turns me off, it hinders me from listening to them. This is especially true for Protestants who claim Sola Scriptura; instead of appealing to scripture, they appeal to tradition which really seems hypocritical to me. Frankly, when people use the word heresy I have to struggle to not just assume that they are speaking out of fear and ignorance; because that is what I’ve experienced. The one’s who’s knee-jerk reaction is to pull the heresy trump card do so because they have not studied the subject, have not wrestled with the issue, and are afraid to have their beliefs seriously challenged. This is often the case, but not always the case so I have to consciously make an effort to seriously consider their objections and concerns.