Michael said in a previous public thread, not more than a month ago, that he’s trying to keep from committing suicide, and that if he believed UR was true he’d just kill himself, so he’s going to do everything he can to remain agnostic about it.
That doesn’t mean his replies have no value, but he did say in effect he has chosen for pragmatic reasons to be prejudiced against UR regardless of its actual truth or falsity.
He’s going to refuse arguments in favor of UR regardless of how good they may be, in other words, so don’t be upset or confused if that happens. It’s reasonable to discuss his arguments among ourselves against UR interpretations, since after all they come from other people who really are trying to figure out the truth, but there isn’t any good reason to actually discuss the topic with him personally, and he might even be damaged by it.
Of course, even if we banned him from discussing things for his own good (to reduce the risk he would come to believe UR and then kill himself, due to his medical mental problem), we couldn’t stop him from reading things on the forum, which vastly outnumber the things he might talk about, and then coming to believe UR is true after all despite his resolution not to believe it to protect himself from his mental illness. (I have to point this out for legal reasons, I guess. Come to think of it, I should probably draft a public statement somewhere to cover board liability… Will talk with the other ad/mods and the owners about that.)
Michael, if that’s really your situation, I have to recommend you avoid even reading the forum for your own safety, or reading (or talking about, or even thinking about) the topic anywhere else. I also recommend avoiding any strenuous mental activity, and any mental activity that can result in you having strong emotions, because that’s only going to make your mental illness worse in various ways, and in this case “worse” means a pain that leads you to want to kill yourself. Just like if someone has chronic arthritis that even with current medical treatments available won’t go away, they shouldn’t be trying to play football or climbing mountains. Or, since arthritis won’t kill someone (just make them wish they’re dead), advanced heart disease. If you know you have a dangerous medical problem, you shouldn’t put yourself in situations where that problem could trigger in even more damaging ways.
If the problem wasn’t also emotional, you could say, well, I enjoy doing it, and if I die doing it that’s okay, I won’t blame anyone else. In college we had a husband and wife on our fencing team, and the husband had an unusual form of diabetes, which meant if he ever got cut we’d literally be in a race to get him to the hospital before he died. He was a great fencer, and we were glad to have him (both for sparring and for competition with other school teams), but he was also very emotionally stable about the situation, and was neither upset about the risks nor going to be upset about them. (After all, we were sticking one another with potentially sharp three foot steel spikes, so all of us knew we had some risk of fatal or permanently crippling injury, and we accepted that without regret.) Otherwise we would have had a responsibility to refuse to fence with him, for his own protection; and as president of the team I would even have had authoritative responsibility to refuse official activities on the team.
But depression isn’t like that. It hurts emotionally, too. A lot. The emotional problem is practically the danger in itself. Even just talking about your situation like this is likely to trigger horrible emotional storms, leading you to misunderstand why I’m talking about it. But someone in your condition should be staying away, for your own protection, from any kind of activity like this. Of course, by the same token, emotionally you’re going to care about doing this a lot (or you wouldn’t be here trying to do it despite your medical condition), which is going to lead to strong emotional conflict, which is going to aggravate your medical problem in itself. It’s a vicious circle, and I’m as sorry as I can be about that, but you’re the only person (unless you’re committed to the care of a medical ward, where other people will take responsibility for controlling your exposure to various things) who can take steps to keep yourself from being in situations you recognize to be dangerous to you.
You’re already taking a step or two in that direction by resolving never to believe UR in order to protect yourself. But logically it would be better to find a hobby or interest less inherently dangerous to you at all, and stay away from places you’re specially vulnerable to being hurt. As I have said before (including to you if I recall correctly), if you have bungie cords sunk into your bones and anchored in the ground, you shouldn’t go climbing up to do parkour on the Empire State Building. That’s only going to make things worse, maybe fatally worse.
As to Lothar’s post, I’ll get back to it later. Under the circumstances I thought I should address the far more potentially dangerous (or even fatal) problem first. I’m sorry if you’re upset about it Michael, but then that’s kind of the point: you’re engaging in an activity that’s very likely to be emotionally dangerous to you. For your own safety please consider finding something else to do with your time and energy. (And not something else just as stressful mentally and/or emotionally.)