When You Entered In

[hollytree]

When You Entered In

My eyes were blinded by enemies
I was paralyzed by a world of hate

My days were covered in darkness
My fears had sealed my fate

My mind was shattered in pieces
I was crushed and broken inside

Lost in a world of madness
My spirit just wanted to hide

Isolated from the dreams of morning
All my glory had turned to shame

Hurt and forgotten by others
No one remembered my name

Torn to shreds my heart was cold
I was cut by the devil’s cold knife

Until the bright rays of dawn appeared
And you entered into my life

[hollytree]

While the glory (beauty) of Christ is more along the lines of the type of beauty of sunsets and children, (not the physical beauty of lust of a woman) nothing really compares to the glory of Christ. The analogs point to a deeper reality of Holy Eros. Holiness is what sets God apart from His creation and creatures. For example, God’s love is a holy love His wisdom a holy wisdom, His Justice a holy Justice. He’s distinct. There are ways we are like God and ways we are not. The desire is a bond. Like one has between parent/child, husband/wife.

Bond = Union

Losing self-conscious shame and anxiety (ego separation) we become alive in the present moment as we are connected (union). We die to self and are resurrected to new life.

[hollytree]

I wrote about self consciousness here:

The Root of My Problem - Self Consciousness

As it says in the Big Book on page 62, “Selfishness - self centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles." Growing up with a lot of self-conscious shame and anxiety is the root of my ego. It’s a self-centeredness in the extreme. Drugs and alcohol intensified my shame and anxiety. I used to relieve my shame and fear and this would cause more shame and fear. These are called shame and anxiety spirals and they snowballed out of control and became so intense that I snapped. Self-consci…