Hi Nic,
Exactly!! Nothing has changed–it’s still the same bible, filled with the same words–yet all things are made new. And I have found it necesary to re-evaluate many things, and found that many things I thought I understood, are not as I thought they were.
Changes for me:
Hope–like I never imagined possible
Joy–to match the hope
Love–as my understanding of the extent of God’s love for his people has expanded, mine has also increased
Faith–while I’m sure I would still qualify as one “of little faith,” the faith I now have is exponentially more
So far as evangelism goes, I don’t have much opportunity, as I’m a mom of 6 and just don’t spend much time in situations that allow for it. I have been able to encourage a few people–and the nice thing was that I could do it without feeling a desperate need to convince them to believe in Jesus right now or make some kind of commitment* right now*, for fear that they would suffer endlessly if I failed. I guess you could call it a new found freedom to work alongside the Spirit, on His timetable for the individual, rather than trying to force what the person is not ready for. I can meet a person where he is, confident that God is at work in him for His good purposes.
The message I carry has also subtly changed, being more along the lines of “God is calling all people to repent because He will judge the world”–rather than “God is offering you a ‘Get Out of Hell Free’ card.” The emphasis is now on reconciliation to a loving God, instead of saving yourself from the wrath of an Angry God. (Though a loving God who loves enough to not let His children get away with their sin. ) Also there’s no more of that uncomfortably hardhearted and selfish aspect: “Too bad about your loved ones that have already died (they’re in burning torment right now), but it’s not to late for you to save your own soul.”
It’s a good question, and I look forward to reading what others have to say on it.
Sonia