Sherman,
I don’t know IF this goes along with your post or not… if not, I apologize. But I’ve wondered ever since my introduction to UR 10 years ago, whether or not some of us are NOW living out our own “hell,” or maybe better put, refinement, restoration, etc.? I no longer believe in annihilation, which is what I was taught, but do you think it possible that in this present day we are either being “tested” or actually living in that “hell” so as to prepare us for the Kingdom? The reason I ask this is because I can’t wrap my head or my heart around those who are suffering tremendous abuse, great physical pain, emotional pain, mental disorders (for which that soul has no control), the loneliness that poor, poor little girl suffered at the hands of her abuser, all the marginalized folks out there… it just makes me really wonder what the purpose in all that is??? Unless, like I suggest, we already ARE living our own individual hells right now. I don’t mean to sound like a downer here, but I do have a very hard time with this particular issue. Guess that’s WHY I GRABBED on to UR when I did and didn’t really question it, as it SAVES EVERYONE eventually, regardless of their given circumstances that they had NO control over. You know, even the loneliness that some feel (and of course, most would not admit to that) can be crushing. Being ALONE is one thing, but being lonely even when one is in relationships IS hell on earth. IMHO. So maybe my question is way to simple, and it comes from the heart, therefore I don’t know how much merit to give it because IF I determined my OWN personal relationship with Jesus on how I “feel” on any given day, well, I’d be doomed. I have to believe for my sanity that LOVE runs way deeper than a feeling, that God’s love runs so deep for this child you referred to that HE HAS to save her, HE just has to!!! And IF God were to judge each of us on a daily basis according to our actions, and then decided to withhold His love based on that, I’m screwed. So many variables that would interfer with my salvation, it scares me to think about it. The way I was raised, you were loved IF and only IF you behaved in a certain manner. That love was withdrawn quite easily if I missed the mark, so love for me is a very difficult concept. Especially with God. Love was ALWAYS conditional… I’m thinking about my own experience as a small boy… I can relate to this poor little girl and what her family did to her by selling her, that is her ONLY known expression of love, HOW in the heck does she EVER overcome this? How does she ever see that the essence of God is love when she has been abandoned by those who are supposed to love her most?? Clearly, I’m very confused on this. But I say again, even without a satisfactory answer to my question, thank God for UR as it DOES make room for all of us and our given set of circumstances. Maybe I’m just pondering and should hit the delete key, BUT this topic you brought up really brings it home to me that there are those of us who really WANT to relate to God as loving but don’t know how, due to things beyond our control. I come back to, maybe we are being “refined” now. That’s the best I can come up with for my pea-picking brain. These stories like the one you told above, just break my heart. Actual tears of sorrow for that type of suffering. Enough of my trying to figure it all out, I don’t think I ever will.
Blessings to you Sherman,
Bret