I went back and found my email to my friend. I’m pretty sure she didn’t respond because it’s very wordy and probably confused her. This was the email:
Jenn, I know it is within your Christian upbringing to endorse Libertarian free will. It was mine too. I remember when I visited with you in Chic-Fil-A and we met a gal that was a Calvinist and you were explaining how your mother n law detests that and is avid about giving a defense for free will. I, too, detest Calvinism.
My mother is always telling me about how we need to make wise choices and no doubt she is right. It always goes better for us when we do.
I’ve always, though, been disturbed with believing that it is up to us to get it right, that our fate is in our hands, being that we are sinful people, blind, and irrational. Who will save us from our delusion that life is great without God? How is it that I can come to God,but others never will?
I don’t know if you will remember this, but Gene, at Family (our church gathering), would always raise questions about how free will passages and more deterministic, Calvinist, passages work together. It was always nagging him how they might both be true, that it was our choice and yet we were clay in the potter’s hands.
We came across a Christian author by the name of Thomas Talbott. He explains a view that I think makes so much sense of the bible.
He explains that while we make choices. They are not “free” in the libertarian sense. How could they be? We are blind, enslaved to sin, irrational, ignorant of God. We are not all built with the same knowledge, experiences, etc. and are in need of God to work with us in our blind choices, many times through consequences, so that we are able to choose Him. He so eloquently explains that any choice to reject God is irrational as it is not in our best interest. It is only once we’ve chosen God that we are truly free. The only really freeing decision, based in truth, is to love God. He is the truth that sets us free.
I’d say it like this…If we think we can make “free” choices, apart from God’s intervention, that it is not his leading that led us to be able to choose then have we not taken the credit for ourselves and opposed the very grace that is what reached us in the first place?
And if it is God’s intervention that eventually reaches us, why not the rest? Is he not also faithful to reach them? It was at this point in my spiritual journey that I did look at Calvinism and contemplated that perhaps God had elected only certain people to love in a saving way. I came to reject such a notion, as it did not seem to embrace a God that died for the whole world.
Then I asked is there something better about my heart that I can respond to God’s call? But isn’t it the hardest heart, the worst of sinners, that God can soften? Jesus, after all, came for the sick - the ones that are blinded by sin. Isn’t it the message of the bible that God, through his grace, seeks us out until we are found?
It seems to me it is just as Talbott says. Though we make decisions, they are not “free” in the libertarian sense that we see clearly and are able to make the best choice, apart from God’s intervention. It’s God’s grace that brings us to the point that we are able to choose Him so that no one can boast. And he is faithful to us all, come hell or highwater.
The cross so powerfully demonstrates the depth of love and forgiveness that God already had toward us. We can trust that God seeks our welfare no matter the consequence that is necessary to turn us. There is nothing that can separate us from the love of God.
Thought I’d share a little of my history on this since the subject came up. Sorry I shared so much. I’m always so wordy. I have found this insight about how our will and God’s will works together to be very helpful in how I look at others.
Sincerely, Amy
I probably should have stopped while I was ahead.