The following is part of an article from www.healthyplace.com/blogs
What Is Self-Hatred?
When you have low self-esteem, you dislike yourself. You struggle to see any of your positive qualities or you diminish them. And you turn yourself into a bad person by giving yourself negative traits you don’t have or by exaggerating those you do. Any mistake you make is blown out of proportion. You always beat yourself up.
Self-loathing or self-hatred is something quite different. When you deeply hate yourself, you cannot stand yourself. You view yourself as the absolute worst person on the planet. People with low self-esteem may not want to be friends with themselves. But those who carry the burden of self-hatred turn themselves into an enemy. Self-hatred encourages feelings of intense rage, disgust, and vitriol towards oneself. It becomes impossible to believe that you are valuable, lovable, or capable of anything.
People may end up hating themselves if their low self-esteem spirals out of control and goes unchallenged. Self-hatred is also a symptom of many mental illnesses, including bipolar disorder, depression, and borderline personality disorder.2
The Connection Between Self-Hatred and Suicide
Self-loathing can make you vulnerable to suicide because it tends to foster beliefs about how you’re a burden, a failure, broken, and unsalvageable. If you hate yourself, you may want to do harm to yourself, which can take the form of self-injury, engaging in behavior that could potentially be fatal, such as excessive drug and alcohol abuse. When you think of yourself as this unforgivable, despicable character you may genuinely wish you never existed and think you don’t deserve to live.
In this way, self-hatred can lead to suicidal thoughts, which, if left unchecked, can be taken as sacrosanct and authoritative. Not everyone who has suicidal thoughts will make plans and act on them, but, of course, these thoughts are always precursors to the act of suicide. People who experience self-loathing are often suffering immensely. They would do anything to make the pain go away. Suicide becomes a viable option.
Preventing suicide depends on working with the deep-seated issue of unworthiness. The emotional hardship of self-hatred can be soothed and resolved in all sorts of ways. Isolation lets self-hatred fester. This is why it’s crucial that people who struggle with self-loathing surround themselves with people who will lend them an empathetic ear – this could be friends, family, a spouse, a neighbor, a therapist, a support group, or an online community.