Precisely, Kate. Calvinism is both illogical and unbiblical, and riddled with contradiction and paradox from soup to nuts. It is impossible to believe in all its doctrines simultaneously, hence the massive cognitive dissonance of which I spoke earlier.
The Bible states, plainly and unequivocally, that God is love. Jesus - who is the exact representation of God - showed us the truth of this in his self-sacrificial life and death. And to my mind it is an obvious fact that God must, ontologically - in his essence, if you like - be perfect love.
I’m not good on philosophy, but I think this was one of Aquinas’s ‘five ways’ or proofs of God’s existence. Whatever, for me it’s axiomatic that there is such a thing as love, because even I, a rubbish, sinful human being, have experienced and can give and receive love. And it is also axiomatic that if God exists at all he must be more loving than me, or he could not be God. And if we extend that as far as we can, God must be more loving than even the most loving person who has ever lived, or the most loving being that can ever be imagined (because if there were a being more loving than God, that being would, in fact, be ‘greater’ than God, which is nonsensical. Hence God must be infinite, pure love.)
Which is where Calvinism comes a complete and utter cropper. Because under Calvinism, and as Tom Talbott has argued so eloquently in this brilliant piece - evangelicaluniversalist.com/ … nation.pdf - God simply does not love the reprobate in hell. Hence God is not always loving, hence God is not love. Which leads to direct denial of Biblical truth, hopeless contradiction and massive cognitive dissonance for the ‘good’ Calvinist.
Cheers
Johnny
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