Jaxxen: Hey bro, thanks for the prompt response. Well, before I jump in, I want you to be aware that I haven’t gone to seminary, or Bible college, and I’m not a scholar by any means… just a 29 year old janitor who lives in a trailer with his mother and his sister, a dog and two talkative cats.
I’ve only read through the whole Bible once (and the reputably not very literal New Living Translation at that), and I’ve only read a few books here and there, mostly heavy on the grace side of things, and though I’ve given popular Calvinists a fair shot in some of my reading, listening to MacArthur and Piper and the like here and there, honestly I couldn’t bring myself to listen to them very much , because what they had to say drove me bonkers and/or left me in confusion and despair… so for sanity’s sake, I could only delve so deep. So, though I am aware of some of the Calvinists arguments, I am by no means college-educated on the subject. Nevertheless, I have given them a fair shot.
With that said, I’ll jump in…
If I could give a fair shot to and also survive listening to ‘orthodoxy’ (so-called) that basically has only ever driven me (and many others I might add) into depression and close to the brink of losing my mind (and you’ve got to ask yourself, why would such a response as that be so natural and common when the message is supposed to be ‘good news’, as they say?), then couldn’t you give a fair shot to and survive listening to ‘heresy’ (so-called) that would perhaps confuse you a bit but would never cause you to despair, and only stir your heart to a greater hope?
I really think you should check out the book I recommended bro. It’s on Amazon:
amazon.com/One-Purpose-God-D … 472&sr=8-1
It’s a little spendy (well, to me it is anyway), unfortunately, so if you’d like, when I have the money (probably when I get my tax return) I could buy you a copy myself, and then mail it to you, if you only promised to read it with an open mind.
I know I may be coming off as a bit antagonistic here, but I don’t mean to…
I respect you Matt, and I appreciate your kind heart and sympathetic attitude towards those that you disagree with.
But we are at an impasse really, just as you and Johnny are… neither is willing to budge at the moment from his convictions and his beliefs… our reasons for not doing so may be similar or different or somewhere in between, but nevertheless, neither can really convince the other to come and join him on his side of things.
But I will say that I have more to lose if I’m wrong, and you have more to gain if you are.
If I’m wrong, then, to put it bluntly, some schizophrenic/self-absorbed/tyrannical deity (I’m not trying to insult you here, bro, because I know you don’t reflect this in your own character and heart, but rather I’m speaking out against what, at least to me, the Calvinist teaching of limited atonement, or the ‘few will be saved, most will be condemned, before they’re even out of the gate’ teaching, entails, when painting a picture of God’s character and heart, or lack thereof) will torment me forever for believing that he was better than he really was, that he cared more about and could do more for humanity than he ever really did…
Basically, I would be condemned for giving God the greatest of compliments, and for taking him at His word, that His love really doesn’t fail, ever, and that all things really are possible with Him… imagine that, being cast out for believing wholeheartedly in God’s promises.
In which case you would be, perhaps, looking down on me in hell, or the lake of fire, or whatever you want to call it, along with Jonathan Edwards and John Piper and the like, enjoying, along with God, my utterly illogical torment, while you worshipped this insane Lovecraftian horror in disguise, who kept you and a few others around for some sick reason, that he might call love, but has no real bearing on any humanly experienced or positive meaning of that word.
(My apologies if what I wrote above offends you at all, but this is how I see the matter, and I don’t believe you or anyone else could ever convince me otherwise. I look around me, I look at my fiancee, at my family and my friends, at the good all around me, even in a world full of darkness and brokenness, and think to myself ‘such a God could not create all that goodness, could not even create someone like me who longs for more of the same, would have no basis from which to create such things, being as selfish and cruel as he is’ or like my fiancee Kaylyn says ‘if God is a monster, then how could have He created me?’)
But, if you’re wrong, then you would find that God’s love is like that of a good parent for their child, unconditional and everlasting, only far far greater, and this love is not only for you and those like you, for the ‘elect’, but also for your family and your friends, who aren’t ‘elect’, for people on the street and in your workplace, and in the stores that you shop in and in the restaurants you frequent, who aren’t ‘elect’, and even for your enemies, for the people you don’t like, who aren’t ‘elect’, and for all people, who aren’t ‘elect’, throughout the world and throughout time, no matter how detestable or messed up they may be… and that God is not a quitter.
That He doesn’t give up on people, ever, let alone so quickly, after a brief life that is but a breath in the realm of eternity… let alone forever condemning people before they are even born…
You would find a God who’s judgment is for the purpose of, in the long run, showing mercy, who’s wrath is against sin, this sickness that infects all people, and He means to eradicate it, but also means to heal and set free all those people throughout the world and throughout time who have been held in its grip… a God who is ultimately humble and gentle of heart, as Jesus showed… who’s anger lasts for a moment, but who’s favor lasts for a lifetime…
You would find a God that you could trust completely, instead of someone you would always have a lingering dread of… you would find reason to say ‘how glad I am to have been wrong!’
So you have so much more to gain in being wrong, while I have so much more to lose…
Just think on this, bro… in this life, we are only debating.
In the next, when the veil is lifted, we will find out which of us is right, and which of us is wrong, for sure… until then, I will wager on hope rather than despair.
I would rather take a shot, and believe that God really is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in love, like the Scriptures say, and that His love never fails, like the Scriptures say, that He is mighty to save, like the Scriptures say, instead of concluding that he effectively hates many of those whom I’ve loved, and hates me for doing so, for wanting him to love them with a saving love too, even though he commands me to do so when he himself does not, like the totally schizophrenic hypocrite he would be if such a God turned out to be real…
I know you’ve got ten years on me, but I think I’ve wrestled with these things even more then you have, bro. I can scarcely imagine few have… and if anyone has, my goodness, how terrible that must have been
But I believe that God’s answer to my countless agonizing prayers over the years is something like this:
‘I’m not a monster, my child, but a Father who cares, not a tyrant, but a King who understands… and all those fears you have had about Me over the years?
All those cries and screams and tears you have shed in the middle of the night? I have heard them all and I have shared in your pain, in your anguish, in the bitterness and the gale, just as I have shared in it with my servant Jeremiah and with many, many others, for I am near to those who are broken-hearted and crushed in spirit… but you do not need to be afraid, my child.
Because what you’ve feared is simply not true.
I’m… not… like… that. You can trust me, with your heart, with your life, with everything… and with everyone.
One day, all people, everyone, all those who have been born and all those who have died, will see Who I really Am, and they will rejoice, and they will be glad, and they will be home…’
And I’m going to hold onto that, like Job held onto his faith, even if I find myself in a situation where, like Job, I’ve got people all around me telling me how wrong I am to hold onto it…
I believe God corrected and rebuked Job because he was leaning on his own understanding more than He was trusting Him… but the fact that He blessed Job, and restored, even doubled, his fortunes… I believe it says more then you think it does, bro… it says that mercy triumphs over judgment. And He not only showed mercy to Job, but to his ‘friends’ as well, who had been harping on him…
And as to Romans 9?
Bro, you’ve gotta keep in mind that that’s just your interpretation (which honestly didn’t make much sense to me, but that’s probably not any fault of yours, but probably cause I’m tired and dis-focused cuz I’m fighting a cold and all )
These things are all a matter of interpretation, really, when it comes down to it. There is no guarantee that you are right, nor that I am right. This is a matter of faith, not sight.
When the veil is lifted, it may be sight, but till then, it’s faith.
I believe what I believe now because it makes a lot more sense to me then what I believed, or tried to believe, before, and because I believe it is what God has revealed to me.
And perhaps you feel the same about what you believe.
I guess I’m just asking that you would give UR a fair hearing, and not just to seek to disprove it in some way, but be open to the possibility that it is true, because let’s face it, you would have a lot to gain if it was true, and you would have a much greater hope to share with your friend who is struggling, which is one of the main reasons you are here in the first place.
Sorry for such a long rambling answer, but I felt it was needed. Hopefully you’re not overwhelmed by it
Whatever the case, blessings to you bro, and peace
Matt/Edward