Michael,
I enjoyed reading your post. I think, though, you need to ask yourself this question. What is your ultimate authority of belief? Is it St. Paul? Thomas Aquinas? Creeds? The Gospels?
To me, the only God worth believing in is one infinitely good. Any image of God or idea of him that has in it any darkness at all, I think too mean and little and small to be the real God. Do you really think we could think too good of him? That we could “over-hype” him, as it were? I don’t.
So that is my ultimate authority - my own experience (subjective, sure, but so is everyone’s and that’s inescapable and therefore moot) of what “goodness” means. And I can’t for the life of me think that a being who would be satisfied (and particularly get some sort of “satisfaction” from beholding) the eternal torment of sentient, conscious beings made in his image and therefore in some deep way very like himself could ever be “good”. If words have any meaning at all, such a being could never be good any more than a square peg could fit into a round hole. How could such a being be anything but the most hideous thought the human mind could conceive? What is the motive of such a being other than delighting in sheer malevolence and, in a sort of way, self-mutilation?
So you could quote verses and doctors of the church and creeds till the cows come home backing up eternal torment and it doesn’t mean a thing to me. I’d believe in my conception of God - that is, as a being unsurpassingly all-good - if there was no Bible, or even no Jesus. Because that idea is my ultimate authority. It’s the only thing worthy enough to be the object of faith. The human mind of its own reaches into infinity; it yearns for breath from the mountaintops of eternity and the founts of very life itself. Nothing short of an infinitely good God - that is, a being perfectly beautiful in every way - can satisfy it. Man cannot live by bread alone; and his soul shall starve on low notions of the divine. Thus he eventually casts them off and looks for the real thing, the thing that can satiate his hunger.
So what, Michael, is your ultimate authority? What would you say right now is a notion too mean for you to think of God? Indeed, is there anything you would not believe? Ask yourself - what could your authority right now say (be it St. Thomas or St. Paul) that you would not believe?